Sunday, October 17, 2010

October 16, 2010: Charles Spearin - Vanessa

Charles Spearin - Vanessa: youtube.com/watch?v=mhJkN1FMusU

I remember telling a friend once that my greatest fear was to go deaf, that it would be the greatest irony, to my life, for me to go deaf. I feel sound is so important to my being that if I was denied that sense it would be my end.

Yet somehow, at this point, I feel that is an exaggeration. Maybe not an exaggeration, it would still be a tragedy, but it would be something I could move beyond. It would move me to sorrow, surely, but it would simply be a new conception of sound for my body that would move me to enjoy different sorts of sounds, different movements. I would feel differently, as physically as one can feel, is all.

And I feel that one should be greater than their passions. One should never live for a thing but for people, should dedicate their lives to making better the lives of others. Maybe this isn't a philosophy that would work for all, as no philosophy works for all, but God knows I still need help at points and I hope there would be someone there for me to help. So I make myself available, for my own sake if anything.

I would miss sound so very much, if it was denied me. Somehow, though, I would love to be close to another who was deaf, if only to get an idea of how such a sensation would be, to be surrounded by another whose priorities were so different from my own. To learn to move beyond.

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