PJ Harvey - When Under Ether: youtube.com/watch?v=lnUQwE0YhZo
When I was a kid I used to get headaches that were so intense I couldn't see, was bed ridden for days. I went to doctors for years to find out where they were coming from but none could find any "cure." Of course they all offered solutions: The eye doctor said it was because of my eyes so I got glasses. The nose and throat specialist said it was because of my sinuses so I took drops and pills for years. The orthodontist said it was because of my teeth so I got braces. Perhaps it was a combination of all of these "solutions" for my severe headaches (or, migraines, I suppose) stopped being as often and intense about half way through my teen years. I, though, would doubt that any of these remedies worked. I do, infrequently, suffer headaches that throb through my whole body but I've become apt at quelling their pain with ibuprofen before the intensity grows to a severe state.
Aside from these headaches I also suffered from strange and hallucination inspired fevers at times. I would suddenly find myself vomiting and sweating, sleeping for days on end, having pills put into my body everywhere. I recall those headaches in association with the fevers and don't know which came first, if the fever stemmed from the headaches. Regardless, in my state during this time I would have disquieting visions, half-conscious dreams, in which certain objects around me would become unreasonably large but lighter than air. I remember my hand acquiring such dimensions, especially. And my blanket would become heavy and imprisoning. And I recall a giant rat in the room, in front of me, but only when I closed my eyes for when my eyes were open he would be gone or would turn to shadow.
These fevers haven't happened to me in years. I would assume that the last such episode happened to me before I was 14 years old. Did I give something up that these hauntings have left me?
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