Cat Power - Moonshiner: youtube.com/watch?v=Lx120yg_JDk
It's been a tough month, or so. I'm off next week on a big trip and, in need of money to fund it, took a job and dedicated myself to it for about 6 weeks at least. The problem is that I'm not making money at this job, or, better stated, not enough. I make now about as much as I did when I moved to Toronto and resigned myself to a job dish washing. So, effectively (I've been using that word a lot in my inner dialogue lately, for some reason), I've been working too hard and have developed a level of stress I'm not used to, am therefore going out drinking.
I don't particularly like drinking to let off steam, I just like the drink. It is, to borrow a massacred phrase someone else has before stated, a means to keep forever this sacred moment. It is a form of rebellion. It is a bonding and a freedom and a way to make oneself spiritual and holy and among. It is to be part of something outside yourself. And to use another borrowed phrase, it makes one either more beautiful or more ugly. I like to imagine myself in the former more than the latter.
So, focused, I walk out my door for the night. See you soon.
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